That question knocks on the door of my thoughts from time to time.I would be so much further along.
I have often thought about what my life would be like today had I come to Him 10 years ago instead of 4.I had sporadic attempts at it, but nothing really stuck, I had a few storms blow through my life that should have brought me to my knees before Jesus, but they never did, instead I plodded along frustrating myself by trying to fix it on my own.
He knew I would come Him one dayHe knew He had a plan
And maybe part of that plan was giving me a healthy dose of the world had to offer, only to realize how short it fell in comparison to HimHe knew the incredibly bad choices I would make, and He let me make them, because ultimately it would bring me to this point
Where all I have left is my faith in Jesus.There have been two times in my life when I felt God speak to me, I am not talking about when I read His Word, or I feel the tugging on the inside, I am talking about those moments when it felt as if He were reaching inside my chest and grabbing hold of my heart and stopping it for just a few moments because He needed my full attention.
The first was last summer when He asked me if I would follow HimThe second was on a very cold wintery day as I was tucked under a mountain of blankets trying to keep warm. My heart caught my chest; I lost my breath for a moment.
I have something for you.
That is it, nothing else, and I haven’t heard anything about it since, no further instructions, no hint of what was about come, but I needed to know more.But nothing since that day.
No instructions for the next step, no hint of what was to comeNothing
Our faith is incredibly important to Him, so much that He will take everything away so the only thing we have left to stand on is our faith in Him to show us that is all we need.Faith that He will keep His word even when it looks like nothing is happening
Faith that He has a plan even when your life goes completely off the railsFaith when you thought you hit a homerun only to discover you were out before even making it to first base.
It is hard, incredibly hard to keep the faith when the silence is so loud; I get that, oh my goodness do I get that.But what He is doing now is preparation for what He has up ahead, preparation for your protection, preparation for what He is going to ask of you, it is for His glory.
We learn what faith really is when the only thing we have left is Jesus, when we are stripped bare of everything and realize how little we have to offer, and the only thing we have left is to hold onto to is our faith that our God bigger than anything this world can muster up.