Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Story Telling

It was about nine months ago, on one cold and snowy sleepless night, I lay in bed feeling like I were on fire, it wasn’t like a hot being on fire it was a fire on the inside, and it was burning me up.  I can’t tell you why I did what I did next, but I got out of bed turned on my computer and started writing, the words spilling onto the pages all by themselves, and as dawn broke and I read the words that I spent all night feverishly typing I knew that life as I knew it was about to change, I didn’t know how and I didn’t when but I knew a change was on the horizon.

I was going through an incredibly difficult time back then which fueled the fire on the inside of me that much more, and I spent many sleepless nights sitting in front of my computer crazily typing to get my thoughts on paper before they exited my head, and before I knew what had happened I had the beginning works of my story, I call it my diary, written by and through the grace of God, and I say that because even in the moments leading up to the first words that I put on paper I had no idea what I was about to do, all I heard was that still small voice telling me to start typing, don’t worry I will give you the words that I want you to write.

After hearing that you may think I need to be on some serious medication, and believe me it was a thought that had crossed my mind on a few occasions, wondering what in the world was I doing.  I’m not a writer, and I kept it a secret for a very long time convincing myself that it was just for me, chronicling my journey since becoming a Christian so I will never forget where it was that I came from and reminding me that I never want to go back there. I let a few trusted Christian friends read it who eventually convinced me that I had to share it, so here I am telling my story. I know I haven’t shared much this time around, but stick with me, I have only just begun.  My story and the words I am using to share it are not by the works of my own hands, the glory goes to God on that one, because I have never written a thing before in my life, nothing, nada, zippo, and it wasn’t a dream that I had or something I ever aspired to do, it came out of no where on that cold and snowy sleepless night.

So my friends, if you think you have led such a wrong life that you think God has written you off or has rendered you useless, you would be wrong, you were created very intentionally born with a purpose that only God can bring to pass and it is so far beyond anything you could possibly imagine for yourself. I hope my story encourages you to seek the purpose that God had planned for you before you were even born because there is one, He is just waiting for you to get out of the boat and say yes.  

Verse for Today:

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Song for Today: 

Sidewalk Prophets, The Words I Would Say

1 comment:

  1. Kandi,
    "Without faith, it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that HE IS, and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him." Hebrews 11:6

    Thrilled to have a fellow seeker for a bloggy friend, and as a friend IRL. (That's blog talk for in real life. Gets a little muddy here in cyberspace.)

    Glad you are out of the boat...keep your eyes on Jesus, not the waves or the wind.